Anais Nin: You live like this, sheltered, in a delicate world, and you believe you are living. Then you read a book… or you take a trip… and you discover that you are not living, that you are hibernating. The symptoms of hibernating are easily detectable: first, restlessness. The second symptom (when hibernating becomes dangerous and might degenerate into death): absence of pleasure. That is all. It appears like an innocuous illness. Monotony, boredom, death. Millions live like this (or die like this) without knowing it. They work in offices. They drive a car. They picnic with their families. They raise children. And then some shock treatment takes place, a person, a book, a song, and it awakens them and saves them from death. Some never awaken.


Take Back the Crap Month

April: No Bullshit Month, My Birthday [April 9], National Poetry Month

Yep. You heard it right. I'm starting a new month-long observance.

"No Bullshit Month" is a whole month dedicated to reducing the amount of crap you put in your life, the amount of lies you keep up, and old baggage you have in your mind and psyche. Basically, it's a mental spring cleaning.

 So to kick this off, I'm going to post mental exercises every week until May 1.


20 People Who don't know who they are.....

Ok. Grab a sheet of paper, start a blank word document, or flip to a new page in your diary.

Number the page 1-20

Think of 2o people in your life {anyone}

For each person, write down something you wish you could tell them to their face no matter what it is

 Here's the catch.... you cant write down anyones name.... you can only use adjectives

Example: (im doing 5 people)

1. i really don't like sharing a room with you because you are fucking up your life and the space you occupy is kind of hazardous to my health.

2. Girl, you know i love and worship you, but i think that you, just like me and her, decided to keep our relationships despite the fact that we know they are damaging and toxic. We did it because we are still in love with them, the people who they used to be before the shit hit the fan. it's ok. We all are dealing with shit that no woman should have to put up with, yet we see something inside of each of them that deserves second chance. Bleeding Out the evil is what were telling ourselves were doing. Whether or not its true, this thing me made ourselves believe, we should not be the same women from before. We should not have to sacrifice our frame of mind, the connection between our head and our hearts. Whatever you do, imma be here, just dont close the door like you did the first time.

3. theres so much i want to say to you. Filling this space wont help me put all of my anxiety, faith, fear, and love into words.

4. there's so many things you're afraid of right now. its ok. take it one second at a time. we've been through worse. its getting better, babe.

5. Peace.

Understand? This is interesting when a.) people find out who they are, b.) people find out who other people are yet manage to concur with what you said about them without knowing that you wrote the comment about them, and c.) if you manage to write one of these lets say, twice a year, you forget who you wrote some of the comments to.

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