Anais Nin: You live like this, sheltered, in a delicate world, and you believe you are living. Then you read a book… or you take a trip… and you discover that you are not living, that you are hibernating. The symptoms of hibernating are easily detectable: first, restlessness. The second symptom (when hibernating becomes dangerous and might degenerate into death): absence of pleasure. That is all. It appears like an innocuous illness. Monotony, boredom, death. Millions live like this (or die like this) without knowing it. They work in offices. They drive a car. They picnic with their families. They raise children. And then some shock treatment takes place, a person, a book, a song, and it awakens them and saves them from death. Some never awaken.



I would work my ass off to see this pop up in every major and minor city.



Take Back the Crap Month PART 2

So... yeah
. i need to tell some people in my life how i feel about them, but it's kinda hard to do so. I mean, i wish i could write a letter but a letter would not do my situation any justice. 

So like probably a million and four other people who use the internet as much as i do
i just "Googled it"

 search box ------> [getting things off your chest]
and somehow, i think through another website, i found 

You can go on here and vent all of your feelings about anything anonymously. For instance someone wrote:

Body Mass Index Dispute

Fuck my health professor! He's an asshole! Why is he an asshole you ask? Because he said I need to lose weight because of my BMI (body mass index). Well you know what! Fuck that asshole!

I am 19 years old and weigh 215 lbs. at a height of 6'1''. Now I tried to explain to my professor that I do not need to lose any weight because I have plenty of muscle mass which makes it look like I have a high BMI. I argued with him for about 5 minutes and he made it seem like I'm a bad person for having a BMI over 25.

These body mass index things are bullshit! He talked to each person individually who had a BMI over 25. My BMI is 28.4 but I am not fat by any means. Sure I have gained some extra baggage since I started college last Fall but my body fat % is only 13. He makes it seem like I'm obese and need help losing weight. It felt like he was putting me down. I am seriously thinking about going to the Dean and telling him how much of an asshole my professor is. It sucks I have 2.5 more months of his bullshit class!!!

The only thing wrong with this is, this doesn't help me get it to the people i need to tell my problems to. but then i decided to look at the website again. i pushed the "RANDOM" button like ten times and read each one. Doing this made me feel better, because i realized i was not the only person who had problems. i was not the only person who was in pain. 

No, it didn't solve my own problems but i did learn that there is always an alternative to any decision you make.  There are consequences, big or small, positive or negative that should always be considered. Easier said than done, yes, i know.  Just do what you feel is right. Do what "Karma" would do. If you don't know who 'Karma' is, then, think about this: who made you pay for that time you stole something out of that store or when you cheated on anything or anyone or when you lied or did wrong?  You know her better than you think you do. Yes, THAT bitch...

As for this month, think about other peoples problems. Help them. Forget yourself for a moment. Make sure they are alright. Give of yourself. Then ask for help. Then look at your problems from another perspective. Don't overestimate the power of asking a stranger for advice. 


This week was so stressful!!!!  AAAAAAARRRRGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!

This picture is an interview with a student named, Love. I interviewed her as a part of my honors project. Pro Literacy is an adult literacy program that tutors adults ags 16 +. Love was such a sweetheart. And her name is so pretty.

Well, this week also was stressful in terms of relationship problems too....its HARD  deciding what you want to do when you love someone so much and you've been through so much with them and you want to break up but you cant cos you think you will die without them and  its just so hard cos....

(omg...that pic us so ugly without makeup...eww but you get the idea?)

I was crying cos i was so stressed out but then i heard  a joke and i never thought i would be happy again, then i was smiling and the sun was shining.

That reminds me about the scene in Under the Tuscan Sun when Lindsay Duncan as Sophia (I think) said  "That's the Most important thing. You must always keep your childish enthusiasm. No matter what happens."

That's some good advice to follow.....take note