Count to Ten
By RavenIsACage... | Location: United States | 01/16/09
"There are faces, there are smiles, so many teeth, too many arms and legs
And eyes and flashing buttons all around me
I'm a-watching, I'm a-breathing, I'm a-pushing, I'm a wishing
That these walls would not be talking quite so loudly
I have lost it once before I've pulled myself up from the floor
And I am looking for a reason to stay standing
But sometimes it's just too much or not enough or something else
It's so much bigger than my head, it's too demanding...
...I'm gonna close my eyes
And count to ten
I'm gonna close my eyes
And when I open them again
Everything will make sense to me then....
---Lyrics from the song "Count to Ten" by Tina Dico
Lately, things have been crumbling and falling all around me. Hopes have failed, expectations have withered away with the beginning of a new year. We are at a constant state of "crawling out" of our lives. On every level there is a constant shift to crawl out of the holes we are living in. (Yes, the country is in a hole.) I feel like I have been knocked down by so many chaotic events and it is only the first month of the new year, the first week of classes in a new semester in college and the first year of my quest to find the other parts of myself....OH DEAR.....