Anais Nin: You live like this, sheltered, in a delicate world, and you believe you are living. Then you read a book… or you take a trip… and you discover that you are not living, that you are hibernating. The symptoms of hibernating are easily detectable: first, restlessness. The second symptom (when hibernating becomes dangerous and might degenerate into death): absence of pleasure. That is all. It appears like an innocuous illness. Monotony, boredom, death. Millions live like this (or die like this) without knowing it. They work in offices. They drive a car. They picnic with their families. They raise children. And then some shock treatment takes place, a person, a book, a song, and it awakens them and saves them from death. Some never awaken.



5:59 p.m., December 31, 2008
New Year's Eve

So, I'm sitting here doing nothing. I'm kind of pissed off because I really would like to go to a party somewhere as opposed to being at home, the place where I'm least comfortable. The person I want to go out with is nowhere to be found. The party I was supposed to go to didn't happen and nothing is looking bright right now. 
Last New Year's Eve I was sitting on the couch, staring at my parents snore while the clock struck 12 a.m. DEPRESSING. VERY DEPRESSING.  The house was quiet as fuck and the only thing I could hear was the quiet roar of the "Times Square Countdown with Ryan Seacrest." I looked around and started crying. YES, I WAS CRYING. Why? 
Because this social life I claim is not fulfilling. There are not a lot of things that don't fulfill me right now. Yeah, just going out with people who share the same likes as me is an option but I find myself being the only person I know who is trustworthy.  And that doesn't mean I'm not trying to do anything about it. UGH!! I need a car and a license, but then where would I be? Out by myself...... a young lady, out by herself at night in the big city... terrible things are bound to happen. 
Please don't say "Make New Friends". That shit never works. 

6:15 p.m.


My Travel Blog is up/////Paying Tribute to one of The Ten Queens (Bettie Paige (1923-2008))

It's official. I am making a promise to myself that I will be traveling this summer. NO EXCUSES!!! NO LIES!!!! NO PROMISES WITHOUT SUCCESS!!!
Matador is a Community of articles about all things Travel and its impact. Here is a statement from their website about who they are to better illustrate their purpose and also, why they are important to this post:
Matador is a meeting place. It’s a place for you to express yourself, tell others about your adventures, get meaningful travel advice, and take inspiration from the beautiful and remarkable things others like you have discovered all across the globe.

We started Matador because we love to travel. When we travel, we are constantly amazed and inspired by the people we meet, the cultures we're exposed to, and the adventures we have. We want to share our discoveries with you and allow you to share yours with us. The result will be a community of travelers, adventurers, and vacationers connected by their thirst for the unknown.
Travel is a vehicle for uniting individual voices, minds and ideas. As travelers, we are, in a sense, freelance ambassadors; not only do we return with stories of other cultures and ways of life, but we also share our own culture and ways of life with the people we meet along the way. We at Matador believe this exchange is essential to bringing about positive development in our rapidly changing world.

It’s sometimes easy to forget how vast the world is and how many interesting people are out there doing amazing things. Getting caught up in the day-to-day routine can make the world feel small and uninteresting. We want to inspire you, give you the opportunity to share your story, meet people who love the things that you love and give you the tools to plan new adventures.

So go get started! Discover over and over again how lucky you are to be on this planet and how much there is to explore. Whether you're taking a year off, or just those precious two weeks…the world is at your fingertips. Think of Matador as a global watering hole for creativity, culture, and adventures big and small. In the end, Matador will be what you make it.
Optimism without ignorance, confidence without arrogance, engagement without aggression – Matador offers a truly authentic connection to the world around you. Can there be any greater adventure?
So, since I've been on there enjoying their articles and finding some great info, I decided to make a profile. A thought came to me as I was filling in the "about me" section, The subject of which is in my blog on the website. Don't worry about missing out on any of my luvin' reader, every time I post on Matador, I'm going to post it here.

My first post is titled, "Who I am now, who I will be soon

"...I remember when Zerri and I were talking about how we were going to go travel and make money abroad so we could come back with more due to the exchange rates in The States. I hated the fact that he kept talking about it and it never happened. I refuse to stay in Michigan!!!! "

I'm going to make myself into the person I see in the back of my head. 

It might sound crazy to you, but just wait and see...I'm going to knock your socks off in a couple of months....



Rest In Peace Ms. Bettie Paige 1923-2008
The Queen Of Curves...

If you know nothing about this amazing woman, I suggest you go research her because she is a BADASSMOFO!!!

Page starred in Varietease in 1954, which managed to challenge the sexual mores of the time without showing nudity or overtly salacious content. She stopped modeling three years later.

She is one of  The Ten Queens because I, as a fan of her work, have really learned the value of loving and embracing my sexuality and
 sexiness as a woman. 
I have also learned that sexuality,
 esteem and self- image has to be gained 
and made by myself, and by no one else.

People's lives have been wasted on the 
pursuit of other people's fantasies and goals
and dreams which all don't parallel
 with what we want for ourselves
often enough.

A moment of silence for her..
(Scroll SLOWLY)

(I will post my concept of The Ten Queens later)


S.T.O.R.Y. Stories Told Over Remixed Years By K Salaam and Beatnick

OH MY GODDDDD!!!!!!!!!

My husband Common has a new mixtap out.

YAYYYYYY. I found out in Club U.G.L. when I was chillin with my friend Jasmine.

I had an auditory orgasm the first 12 seconds of the first track.


Have you ever wondered what guys/girls feel or think about when they have a crush on someone? I interviewed Jasmine...


How does it feel for you when you have a crush on someone?
"It feels like biting into a peppermint patty and you're flying down Mt. Everest butt naked!!!! But no, really It feels like...butterflies. It really does. If im around someone I like and I can see them comming from afar and i feel like 'WHOOSH!' 'Let me just get myself together!"

Do you currently have a crush on someone?
[Smiles] "No."

You're Lying [Laugh]
"Yes, I do.

What's his name?
"We shall call him 'Main Attraction' "

As you can tell, Jasmine has quite the imagination when it comes to attraction. 


Hard-Hitting Ad targets teens

The above link transfers you to a video which the GB government has started to advertise during the party season.
It is very provocative. It runs backwards to show the sequence of events leading up to a young girls pregnancy.