Anais Nin: You live like this, sheltered, in a delicate world, and you believe you are living. Then you read a book… or you take a trip… and you discover that you are not living, that you are hibernating. The symptoms of hibernating are easily detectable: first, restlessness. The second symptom (when hibernating becomes dangerous and might degenerate into death): absence of pleasure. That is all. It appears like an innocuous illness. Monotony, boredom, death. Millions live like this (or die like this) without knowing it. They work in offices. They drive a car. They picnic with their families. They raise children. And then some shock treatment takes place, a person, a book, a song, and it awakens them and saves them from death. Some never awaken.


Sh!# I Heard That Made Me Mad

See, I approve of websites like eHarmony,, and

They make sense. Nothing is wrong with trying to find someone to spend the rest of your life with. This world is getting so crazy, sometimes spending a little time on the internet trying to find someone who isn't crazy or who wants to murder you is worth the wait. People aren't who they say they are anymore, but there is also nothing wrong in wanting a little commitment.

But there is something wrong with who in the fu^! ever made 

This is the worst thing I have ever seen on the internet in my life. WHY IN THE HELL WOULD YOU ACTUALLY AID SOMEONE IN SINNING? What kind of  person or entity of being, other than the spawn of satan would ever do help someone cheat on someone else, and make a living out of it?

This world is going to hell.
At first, for research purposes when I created a fake account, I thought it was a site for swingers who were looking for people to join in on their marital bliss, but it is the real f-ing deal. Although there are people on here who are single, they are looking for married people. I don't get it!!!! Whyyyy? 

Can't it be a site aimed at people who have open relationships or marriages, not f****g cheating a** spouses who want to screen their mistresses or misters before engaging in adultery?

Why does it have to be a site that helps demonize people? Maybe if you didn't make is so f****g accessible for people to commit adultery, they wouldn't. Maybe offer help on trying to figure out what's wrong! Not make it worse.

This is the reason why I marriage is so risky now... F***RS LIKE THIS.

"Life is Short. Have an Affair."


I may be young, but if I ever say I don't want to take the risk and get married, you know why. This is one of those reasons, cheating ass people!

~~~ 2 minutes after publishing~~~~ UPDATE!!~~~~~~
Not only that, after I published this post, SOME F***ER F***ING EMAILED ME.
There is this thing called a "wink message" sort of like a "poke" on facebook. 
He sent it 3 times. 
I'm mad.

Im going to do an investigation on this S#!T.
Come back in a few, yall.


The Sole of a Woman

Hello dearies,

just wanted to stop by and let you know that Monsieur Louboutin's highly anticipated interactive website is FINALLY up and running. 

There are even video's of his appearances at the Saks Fifth Avenue flat and other places. 

And if you don't know who Monsieur Louboutin is, you need to really find a life.

Just so you know, If I EVER had the opportunity to buy a pair, I would be a very very grateful and humbled woman.



There's a voice inside my head
that isn't shutting up anytime soon.
Growing impatient by the minute
I have to find a way to
satiate it
the other part
that isn't getting anything out of my pursuits;
but what do you feed a monster that has nothing in this world?
A monster that is teased with morsels of what it thinks it wants?
No, I will not let it roam about
to ruin itself and repel towards me -
But I can't ignore it for long,
it is getting quiet.

Copyright © 2009 by Raven Martin


As a woman, you should be this humble.

Flaws and All,
embrace your womanhood and
it will be subservient in return.